Henry, Frenchie, MiltDecember 1951-May 13th 1999
Ten years ago today we were dealt with a horrific blow to our family. We lost my dad. He died of a massive heart attack. I can still remember the day vividly. I think I always will. Even though this day marks 10 years and it seems I am all cried out the tears start to flood back. Not exactly for this day but for the memories I have of my dad and the many days I haven't had with him. I miss him terribly but I know he is up there watching over me along with my Grandpa. He was such a great man to everyone he met. I think that's why it took him more than 30 minutes to get a gallon of milk when we went to the store!
I wrote this last year (although changed the year this time) and it still rings true today of all that I can remember...
10 years ago today:
I woke up to my mom telling me to call 911
I waited for a fire truck and ambulance
I watched my mom say goodbye
I watched my dad being wheeled out on a stretcher
I listened to my dad say "it hurts"
I saw the EMT'S do CPR
I banged and yelled at my uncles door
I drove to the hospital
I prayed the whole time
I held my mom's hand
I knew by the doctors face he was gone
I screamed "NO"
I cried
I cried w/my mom
I had to call my brother and tell him the news
I listened to the coroners report, yet couldn't remember any of it
I heard him say "massive heart attack"
I got hugged by my family
I went home with my uncle
I wanted the whole world to stop
I kept calling Herbie but his phone wasn't near him as he was coming home from L.A.
I had to call my dad's sister to tell her the news
I had to be strong for my mom
I cried so many times
I finally got ahold of Herbie
I cried again
I called my closest friends
I was glad when Candy came over (Thank you Snort!!)
I talked and cried with Candy
I finally got to be held by herbie
I heard "I Love You" for the first time from Herbie
I cried so much
I had to take sleeping pills to sleep
I cried myself to sleep in Herbies arms
3 comments:
I can't believe it's been 10 years. :(
What a beautiful picture of your dad. I see you in him...
I love you!
~Karyn
I know it can't be easy. I know that in the last 10 years we've all watch you grow into a fabulous woman that your father would be so very proud of.
It's odd that you remember hearing him say 'it hurts', and your the one that's been in pain for 10 years. I hope you know he's not in pain, and he's watching every second of your guys lives.
And he doesn't even need to check the blog to do it!
My best wishes to your whole family. You guys are great.
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